It seems like every day of dieting takes Herculean efforts and should immediately be rewarded with, oh, say a 5 pound loss. The more you try not to think about all the yummy stuff you're not eating, the more it stays on your mind.
I know, I know-- don't tell me all that stuff about "eat what you want in moderation". I'm not on that kind of diet. I could probably write a book about eating right, losing weight, exercise, blah, blah, blah.
The problem is that I don't know how to eat a bag of peanut m&ms "in moderation". Five of the little beauties isn't going to do anything for me but whet my appetite.
Besides, this isn't one of those changing-my-lifestyle-gonna-eat-this-way-forever kind of things. This is the I've-got-a-hundred-mile-ride-coming-up-in-8-weeks-and-I've-got-to-get-the-winter-weight-off-my-butt kind of diet.
It didn't help (or maybe it did) that the first talk of General Conference was on overcoming addiction-- and he lumped food into the same category as debt, pornography and drugs. Right as I was happily munching on a chocolate Reisen. Talk about a downer.
Once upon a time, I thought that at some point in my life, I would once and for all conquer this issue and I could move on to the next in a line of endless character flaws. Elder Hales' talk made me realize that, like the apostle Paul who was cursed with some lifetime weakness himself, some weaknesses are never going to go away. They are conquered on a daily basis, but just because you came off the victor today, doesn't guarantee you anything tomorrow.
So, I've had two good days. I pray for one tomorrow-- and that's about as far ahead as I dare look!
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Way to go Kim!!! 2 days and holding on seems like an accomplishment to me...wouldn't it be nice if Ester wasn't this week...hint---have the kids hide there eggs once they are found...at least if it were me, since their eggs seem to call to me! But, it does sound like you have a bit more will power than I do at this point!
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